June 7, 2011

sideline

A new day…

My office is quiet and lately, I cannot help but want and think about sex. He was calling and texting me a lot, this man who I loved, who I would have been with – and now poof he’s back. Its not that I am looking for that, but he is enticing…and the sex was phenomenal. Apparently he misses my curves. No expectations at all, just here and going with it.

Besides, the self pleasuring satisfies for the moment but I want, maybe its a need, the sweaty bodies, the press of flesh. The rapid breathing, eyes dilated. I shouldn’t talk about this, shouldn’t write about it when I am sitting inside my office and can’t do anything about it. Such is the way of it. I think I need sidelines sex. Seriously.

mmm, that sounds so so tempting. Whats wrong with a little squirm at work lol?

RYN: LOL, were the pefect match!

visually.captivating

June 8, 2011

I confess a part of me prefers “self pleasuring.” Sometimes, particularly these last few days for some reason, I sit at work and think about it.

I totally get the “satisfies for the moment” thing. I’m in that spot right now…funny enough, the same thing exactly. A man who I loved, the sex was spectacular…he wants me, but I can’t quite bring myself to go there again. Argh, the frustration of it is so immense. I wish I could just let go and give in to the sweaty bodies and rapid breathing…the incredible sex…and not worry about it.

Ryn, yeah skipped the beer but did manage a little self satisfaction. You never did elaborate on you beer and pool comment! Lol

Using the term loosely “mine” has hurt me many times, but I love him so. He’s a drug. We’ve been locked in this dance for years now. When he goes away I crave him and only resist contacting him through white knuckled willpower. When he’s near I have such a pitiful mix of emotions and sickness and blatant desire that I can’t control myself. Aaaaarggghhh. The frustration of it! And yet, here we are.

kamui

June 15, 2011

Nothing like office fantasies

um nice lol. I highly doubt ur the only one in this world thinking that=)