Shoot me plz?
Aha. Ahahaha. Awkward moment. I got caught up in some love problem between my RP friends; Firion and Bartz (a girl RPer; they’re in an RL relationship). Not exactly that I’m directly involved (I live far away from them, for Cosmos’s sake)… They’ve been my friends for so long, I can’t just let them go like this. Not after I’ve been trying to fix things in my own way a few times before. Should’ve really stayed out, hm. But nooo. I just had to turn into Dr. Advice and patch other people’s proooblems.
It started when I was playing AdventureQuest Worlds. **Lulz, yet another incoherent story thingy from yours truly. Run! Run while you can!
After farming for Job Exp for sometime, Firion went online. Since it’s been ages since we talked, we PMed each other there. We didn’t really have much to talk about, so I just asked usual things. Like "How are you guys" or something. I’m so lame.
Firion replied instantly about Bartz. He said he’s worried since she’s not replying to his texts. I thought, when my best friend texts me, sometimes it takes me two days before I’ll notice it since I ignore my phone like that. So I presumed Bartz was doing the same. But no, I seriously think I am the only one who does that.
I gave him a few examples on what could’ve possibly happened. Like the one I mentioned above, her phone broke, or she’s out of credits. He’s still so unsettled. If I were in his position, I might be doing worse than him. He asked me to go on FB since chat isn’t really that nice on MMORPGs, so I just did. After ages of abandoning that account. Just for Rosebud.
I set my chat to offline right away. I wasn’t really that good of a multi-tasker, like handling different simultaneous chat messages, notifications, etc. I suck at that. All I wanted to do was to talk with Firion; perhaps relive moments of our past RPs with Kaosu and Cosmos. I couldn’t be bothered with anyone else– not by my best buddy Len (a co-RPer), not even by my ‘wife’ Reiri (though I miss her *sniff*).
I always make it a point to sound like WoL when I’m on that account. It’s my way of psyching myself for RPing in case I get involved in one. Firion only knew that side of me, and nothing about my RL personality. That day, I decided to change that. Went on ahead with crazy conversations with him, used emoticons (never used them publicly on my RP account; I bet he was surprised), etc. We actually RPed in PM. It was fun. It was filled with vulgarity, inside jokes, and hell knows what else we’ve done. We even ended up backstabbing Lightning from FF13 for stealing WoL’s righteous place in the DDFF012’s cover.
… I think I just helped him forget his worries. I’m sure he was laughing his guts out in front of the monitor just as I had. So hard that I just had to draw WoL and Firion in street gangsta clothes during class because I can’t get over it.
Later that night, I submitted a colored drawing in DeviantArt. Day after, when I got home, I got a comment from Bartz. In my reply, I mentioned Firion; that he was worried about her and she ought to send him some weird, random text to assure the poor guy.
"I want to break up with him…"
Lolwut. Awkward. Never thought I’d hear that from her again. So. Now that I’m slightly more mature than before, I’m finding it hard on whether I should ‘help’ (more like meddle) them, or leave them be. If I don’t help, I’d think I’m a worthless friend. If I do help, I’d feel like I’m pestering them instead.
Oh, look at the time. I should be sleeping. Or finishing Suikoden already. Guh, why does time fly by so fast? Or is it just because I’m such a slow typer? Well, whatever. We’ll be having our Recollection tomorrow. It’s where we’re being taught about some life realizations and other spiritual matters which will hopefully turn us into better people. I expect plenty of my classmates will cry (it always happens). Me? I’ve been struggling to get rid of regrets, and how to prevent them. I’ve got a (partially) clean conscience. *wink* I’ve nothing to worry about.
Except for Firion, Bartz, and my grades, maybe. orz