Eh

Writing diaries like this makes me feel as if I am talking to myself. Not that it’s a bad idea. Hngh, wth.

So. I want to draw. Lots. But. I don’t know what to draw.

WHY.

Whenever I’m doing anything important, that’s when I usually get inspired for a great concept. And now that I have all the time in the world… I’m stuck as heck. I got a sketchpad from the previous Christmas party. I was quite excited to fill it with lots of stuff. But when I finally held my pencil, I ended up staring at the wide, void area of whiteness. I didn’t know what to do next.

And so I thought, "What the heck." I considered going back to FB so that I can roleplay, but it seems I am in no mood for that. My mindset is not ready to take on Salv’s personality again. Nowadays, I find it quite difficult to go back to my old RPer self.

I think I have an idea why I’m in a loss like this. Problem is, I am at a state of denial.

I realize that I still have long ways to go in developing a stable personality. I keep switching at a moment’s notice. And I find that quite annoying, as I can’t help it most of the time. Or was it all about my mood? I must say, I am one confused teenager.

Gawd, where has my rambling led this diary to? This is getting out of hand.