Oh the bothers of everyday life

I hate my job..it sucks to no frikkin end. I feel like it’s going absolutely nowhere fast. and it’s sucking the life right out of me. blah blah. and what’s with this whole christmas thing? People everywhere telling me to have a good holiday? how can i have a good holiday knowing that there are people out there who have nothing? children and elderly who have nothing this holiday. it makes me very sad to know that there is so many people out there who don’t have what they need to survive. food, warm clothes, shelter.

i went out for a drive last nite to try and clear my head. it didn’t help. i just started thinking about an ex who i really liked and realized that the situation with him is kinda like what happened in my previous entry. only he wasn’t married. just had jealous female friend who didn’t like me very much. what is it about me that most girls seem to find so threatening? Is it that I find it fairly easy to talk to guys about anything once i can get over being so shy? i dunno. i guess i just have varied interests that most girls don’t. but that doesn’t help me in the dating scene. i can’t seem to find a guy who won’t run when he finds out that i’m a virgin. it’s happened with every guy i’ve told. can someone explain it?

~Auryn~