CoNfUsSiOn…what do I do?

How does it feel to know that your ex might still want you? Hows it feel to know that he wants to make up for making you feel bad? What do you do in that situation, and let down one of them without hurting them?

Ok, to make more sense of what I am talkin about. Josh did something and he is telling Leah that he might get back with me. I all of a sudden got all the feelings I had for him back in a flash. I was doing so good. I forgot about him and moved on. But then BAM this all happened. What the hell man?! So do I tell Josh no I dont/cant be with you? Or tell Chris that its over? Hmm, what to do. I am leaning toward tell Chris its over cause he lives so far away, but it all depends on what Josh does. I wont make a move yet until I know for sure what is going on.

I dont wanna sound like a s**t or anything but there are so many people I like. Theres Josh, Curits, Kyle, Mike, Chris, etc. I dont know what to say. I mean Josh is amazing…he someone that is Ive never really seen before, Curtis is the bad ass that has an amazing a**, Kyle is the gentile and caring guy, Mike is the mysterious guy, and Chris is a sweet and sensative guy. All things I look for but in 5 different guys. See it would be amazing if I could melt all of them together and make one guy and name him Curtis (have a big likeness for that name). Plus there is got to be a guy out there that is good listener, someone with a sense of humor (not sayin that none these guys dont) and just stuff like that. Theres Jeff that has these qualities, but I just met him and I made an iron steal promise to Ashley that I wouldnt like anymore of her ex-bf. I mean I like the kid, but friend wise. I mean I dont know who he is. I mentioned him cause he has those qualities that I look for but thats all. I swear. What to do in this situation? I think…well…I dont know what I think right now.

Well I think this is it for this entry…

Peace~N~Luv,

*~*AMANDA*~*