Start a New.

I figured that was an appropriate entry title due to my whole ‘starting new’ theme.
There is just something about December that gives me hope. Mostly due to the New Year approaching. It either motivates me to the fullest or makes me feel like crap. I believe a new year brings a new beginning and it makes me feel better about all the crap I have gone through and faced throughout the year. Let’s face it, by November we are all tired, feeling unmotivated and looking back on the year realizing what we did, how we did it, what went good and what went bad. This is the time to search for answers and learn from our mistakes. At least for me it is. This year has been one of the hardest yet one of the most successful. It may be a little early to do a yearly reflection but because this is my first entry I am going to sum up my past year.
Lets see, January was my birthday, nothing special. Lets start with my job. I was at a job that was amazing- everything I thought I wanted in a career. As time went on though it got stressful. I was working at a center as a Child Care Worker and the center was open from 7am-6pm and yet somehow my days got longer and longer. More was expected from me and I would start work at 7am and not get home until 10pm. Tell me how that’s possible? Any who I soon figured out that all the stress and me getting sick over a job was not worth it so in March I quit. No notice, no nothing, just quit. Since then I have had 3 jobs which none of them lasted more than a couple weeks. So that caused some financial issues. I am just getting back to full time permanent work now. Boyfriends. My boyfriend and I were living together and had been together almost 4 years but in March when the stress of the job and me quitting hit, things hit an end. We had a lot of issues anyway but I finally called a permanent quit. He moved out. Soon after a guy who I knew a month or so moved to the city and moved in with me. It’s been rocky but we’ve been dating for 8 months now. I am not good with relationships but this ones my best friend and really seems to be a keeper. So that’s that. What’s left, ah, social life? As most of you probably know- when you’re with someone for 4 years and breakup, your social life seems to go with it? Maybe that’s just me. That’s what happened. I am not good socially anyway. The whole meeting new people thing is a challenge for me. I am quiet until you get to know me. Some people assume i’m a bitch. But I am not. Well, not in the sense they assume. Any way- I have filtered out my friends and have realized I need to get out there and meet new friends. So that’s a challenge I am taking on. Damn. I think that sums up the basics of the past year? See… pretty boring and some what shitty. Yet it’s mostly due to stress and emotions. If im not careful stress and emotions can be blown out of proportion. Looking back on it though, I am glad things went the way they did. I have learned more about myself in the past year than i have in forever.
Like I said… a new beginning. I can’t wait for 2010. =)

A boring entry, but trust me… entries to come won’t be like this. Ha!