Realizations of a girl

It’s amazing to see how someone’s feelings towards another can change so drastically. Reading the notes that I’ve written once makes me realize that that version of me looks and sounds so in love until the point of blindness. Now that the spell wore off, I am starting to see the reality of things. That version of me was trying hold on the hope of C loving her again like she used to do before cheating and got scared to death when she started showing that that love was no longer for her, but for A. She cried and cried, not accepting that C would rather romantically love A and not her. She reached the point of trying to remind C everyday what she did and how she felt about it. Now, it just looks sad.

I’ve heard this saying once that goes: “A girl got bitten by a snake, and instead of getting rid of the venom and cure herself, she went after the snake and demanded an explanation of why it did it and how she didn’t deserve it”, and it hit so hard because my situation was described in that simple story, not more than 5 lines. A girl that gets hurt and instead of trying to heal and move on, she tries to understand why she got hurt and how she didn’t deserve it, like any of that will make the situation any better. I don’t hate the snake, I just wished I didn’t ignore what she was and hoped that she wouldn’t do what’s in her nature: hurt. Now, I just wonder how I managed to love a human being like her.