In search of…

It’s been a few days and I’ve been searching thru that website on and off. For an unknown reason my most recent nightmare has led me back there again. Somewhere there is information I seek, perhaps on the site itself, or in a link, or, as I am now considering, possibly to be found by posing a question to the owner of said site. I’ve gathered additional insight, which has been helpful, but the main focus of my quest has still gone unfulfilled.

As noted before, when I made a submission to the site months ago, I never received a reply. But, then again, I did not actually ask a question. I did not state any sort of query that would have prompted an answer. Maybe I should do so this time, but, exactly what sort of question can I ask? That is perhaps one of the more frustrating things in life; to want to ask something but being unsure as to how (or what) to ask. One infamous example is asking for a raise at work. There, the worker knows exactly what he/she wants, but is unsure how to go about making a case in order to achieve the desired outcome. My problem is that I am unsure what exactly I want to ask. But I that I feel that because of the nature of that site, its administrator might have some insight. I am mulling this over in my mind, contemplating what sort of questions I can come up with.

But in the mean time, I do think I’ve uncovered part of the reason that this all keeps coming back to me, and possibly as to why I am driven to seek answers. The nightmares have been on and off over the summer. They began after the collapse of the Key Bridge, when I began looking at drive over videos of that bridge and others. Videos of the Sunshine Skyway Bridge were the trigger, and then, a while afterwards, I found that associated website. I can’t help but wonder if maybe the dreams were leading me to find that site, and instead had much less to do with the bridge itself. That bridge, I suppose, might just be a symbol, a landmark on the path to my search for answers. My search began back in March of this year, online at least. That continued until I was able to make that visit to the New River Gorge Bridge in June, and then, after some on and off web searching, culminated in my walk of the Chesapeake Bay Bridge. Now I am back to exploring online, in this “off season” where I won’t be doing any traveling. As of now I am composing an email to the site owner, pondering what I plan on asking and deciding what information to share. One thing I do intend to discuss are my negative feelings regarding that strange and unnerving event that took place on the drive to visit the New River Gorge Bridge. You can read about that in this past entry: https://www.opendiary.com/m/schrecken13/a-most-disturbing-sight-6285810/
For some reason I cannot get that out of my mind. I suppose you could say I am haunted by it, though perhaps I might be over-reacting a bit. But I feel like I need another perspective, as it isn’t something I’ve been able to discuss with anyone since. And the creator of that site could possibly be the one to provide that.