Day two:

     Its 1:00 PM in the afternoon. Day has moved fairly quickly but felt slow because I didn’t really achieve anything today. That’s becoming more the norm when my spouse literally wants to argue and dissect every aspect of everything I do. I’m getting used to it. It’s just that the intensity of arguing tends to stop me from doing things I need to get done and furthermore when we stop talking then despair and discouragement of us having tore each other down for hours like most days, doesn’t exactly encourage motivation. 

    4:00 PM day seems to be getting better, arguing has stopped. I have a feral cat situation where like 10 of them gang up and tear apart my trash every day and night. So I came up with a plan to use all my left overs to feed them seperated away from my trash hoping to deter them from shredding crap all over my yard. 

    My brother stopped in for a little bit. I asked him if he could front me 50.00 to get sublimation mugs because I have a hard time keeping a job 1. Because I’m hot headed and extremely sarcastic, 2. I’m a two time F*** up with the law, and 3. I live in a small town and last week had to junk my car. So I have no way to get anywhere. I got 4 children dependant on a awesome Christmas that seems like it will be coming from the dollar store. 

    I am not normally depressed and if you knew me or any of my situation (which we will get to eventually once I figure out how to begin that conversation so everyone isn’t entirely confused) you would probably ask me how in the world am I so level headed. 

    For now however, life goes on.