Go Big Red

Nebraska finally won to become bowl eligible since 2016. We Husker fans are feeling pretty good right now. I’m sitting here drinking a strong margarita and waiting for volleyball next.

I woke up this morning with a sore body. It felt like someone had squeezed me around my mid section during the night. I’m pretty sure I don’t sleep walk but I have started talking more in my sleep since being on anxiety/mood disorder medication. I also move my hands in the air, for example I was dreaming about giving a man a glass of water and woke up with my arm extended in the air. I dreamt about trying to do something on an iPad but I couldn’t reach it and I was getting frustrated. I woke up aggressively poking the air. I’ve also woke myself up laughing. Then I just keep laughing because it’s such a strange experience. There was one time I woke up crying but that was not long after my dad died and I dreamt I was giving him a huge and not wanting him to leave again.

My dad actually passed away a week ago in the year 2021. So it’s now been 3 years. I miss him greatly. Was he perfect? No. Was he affectionate and told me he loved me all the time? No. Did he get angry and argued a lot? Yes. But he was a damn hard working man. He was safety. He was strong. He was/is my Superman. I was closer to him than my sister ever was because we had similar interest in things. We liked sci fi and Marvel/ DC movies. I’ve also watched Gladiator, the Rocky movies, and The Lord of The Rings trilogy with him a hundred times. I was the only one of my family who would talk about the news and politics with him and I’m sure now my interest in this areas has increased since he passed. It’s one of the ways I can still feel close to him. That and becoming a die hard Green Bay Packers fan as he was. I went to Lambeau Field last year in September to see a game in his honor since he never got to go there.

There are so many things I could say. He did a lot and meant a lot. I was not ready to say good-bye. I still feel we’ve been robbed of more time.

So this was NOT where I was expecting this to go. I see more margaritas in my near future.