Stupid For Expecting Courtesy

I am.  I am stupid for expecting courtesy from others. 

People disappointment me. It just happens, I suppose. It’s nothing that I can control. The most I can do is complain about it, because I’m steadily coming to the realization that this is nothing that I can change.

Apparently, I put way the hell too much faith in people to expect them to treat me in the exact same way that I would treat them. In general, my expectations consistently fall somewhere along that continuum between unreasonable and flat-out ridiculous. I ask for way the hell too much.

The concept of common courtesy simply does not exist beyond the confines of my head.

I know this all comes off as very vague and not very descriptive as many of you are probably used to seeing from me, but I’m so fed up that I don’t have the strength or desire to flesh out what it is that is bothering me right now. Rest assured, that I am very upset and that my overall faith in people continues to dwindle.

I truly do not think that I am unreasonable or that I am asking for anything that is impossible or unreasonable.

Why do people feel compelled to waste my time, or at the very least, neglect to value my time the way that I value it? I have no problem helping others. I would just like to have as much information and detail about a situation so that I know what I’m walking into so that I can be as helpful as I possibly can be. Some of these things are important, things like what time might you need me, maybe what it is we are going to be doing, and oh yeah, what exactly might you need to me to do as I’m there with you. As far as I’m concerned, this is basic stuff, stuff that anyone might want to know if they’re being called upon to provide assistance. Asking to have any of that information provided is NOT unreasonable to me, but apparently, for some people, asking them for this very information is similar to the act of trying to get blood from a turnip.

The further I wander from my baseline and comfort zone, the more likely I am to stumble off that cliff and land face-first into the realm of disappointment.

This is very much a game that I truly can’t win, but for some reason, I keep playing.

Something has to give, but in the end, I am also left asking…

Am I that unreasonable?

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