Madness Indeed

Well, I did it; I splurged. That’s not unusual in and of itself; I recently bought an ultrawide gaming monitor that might never get used for gaming, but I splurged on concert tickets BIG TIME. I bought “Meet and Greet” tickets.

I’ve always considered myself somewhat practical. I do go on small spending sprees from time to time, but it’s usually stuff I actually need, like clothes or toiletries. I always try to find the cheapest deal on a “decent” hotel room, I buy the cheapest seats I can get that are close-ish to the stage. I like nice hotel rooms, nice vacations and nice seats at a concert, but I try to keep my spending within reason so there are usually small compromises. When you buy meet and greet tickets, compromise and reason don’t really factor into the equation.

Let me ~~justify~~ explain. There is a certain very talented musician I have been quite enamored with for some time. Maybe 13+ years. I know it’s delusional to think she will remember me beyond the few minutes I get to spend with her and take a picture, but I still want to have that chance.

How do I explain this without sounding like a lunatic, or worse, naïve.

“If you want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid…” – Epictetus

I question the wisdom of writing this. As a fan and admirer I know there are many out there craving your attention and inspiration. I don’t even know if you will read this, and if you do I will feel a little guilty for monopolizing your time, even for a moment, when there are those who are children and others who cherish your attention so. The truth is, I know you love your fans, and there is a not insignificant chance you will read this. So here it is, my appeal. I would, in my arrogance, ask you on a date. I am not an arrogant man, but this feels like arrogance. Perhaps there is a chasm between icon and fan that cannot be overcome. Perhaps you would not be attracted to me. I have thought about a chance meeting for so long I don’t think there is a scenario that hasn’t crossed my mind. We belong to the same church, that is as much claim to fame as I have.

Your music has always had a magnetic appeal. It has soothed my soul since the very first time I heard it; however, my desire is more than this. I am drawn to your kindness, your empathy, and your desire to help others. Your Christ-like love of others is inherent in everything you do and I love you for it. Not in the traditional sense of course, but as a fan may love someone they have never met. You are a bright light and shining beacon upon the world. I hope you will continue to feel inspired and loved by those who admire you, as they feel inspired and loved by you.

Sincerely your fan,

P.S. – Now that I sufficiently sound like a lunatic, here is a business card with my contact information and my favorite scripture, if you have trouble remembering who I am, I probably introduced you to my mom. Have a great life! I know, who can resist?