Midnight Feels Hit Different

I woke up at 12 AM out of nowhere and just felt the need to cry. No idea what triggered it, but I guess it’s partly because I struggled to sleep the whole day yesterday—finally crashed around 4 PM. It almost felt like I slept from dusk till midnight. The lack of a proper mattress has been killing my back since I’ve been sleeping on the floor. My sleep schedule is completely messed up. 😩

I told myself that my first paycheck is going straight to buying a mattress because if there’s one thing adulting teaches you, it’s that quality sleep is everything. My productivity’s been in shambles because of this, and now I’m lowkey stressing about my first day of training on November 4. Like, God, please help me get my sleep right before that. 🙏

Had a full breakdown earlier, like ugly crying, so I went to 7/11 and grabbed a Pocari Sweat, a chocolate, and a banana—trying to hydrate and fix my vibe, y’know? But man, I just really wish my sleep would normalize already. It’s the only thing messing with me right now, but it’s taking a toll on my body, brain, and mental health. I’ve been thinking too much and feeling anxious; like, I didn’t even have the energy to go for a walk today.