Double Shift

I’m back on the classroom floor, lying down in the corner until the end of lunch bell rings. Today is going to be a long day. Working until 8pm with Anabel because I am hired to feed her dinner, give her a bath and medication then put her to bed.
Once that is done, I may take one or two exercise classes at HOTWORX. It’s my new weed…I work out.
I took a laxative last night so I could poop out all my toxins, so I feel the need to go every thirty minutes. Like right now, I need to go again but I’m going to hold off until the bell rings.

for lunch I brought prison food. It was this nasty make believe mashed potatoes and leather steak bits. I am now messing up my diet with bbq chips but you only live once so..who cares. I do care though. I want to feel slim. I ate so much yesterday so I’m trying to hold back today…

so far I had my Starbucks for breakfast, about 5 cinnamon graham crackers, a tv dinner, another coffee and bbq chips. I’m watching Anabel tonight and they feed me dinner so I’m excited to eat a home cooked meal.

well that was quick…the bell just rang. I hope the rest of the day flies by. I’m still short. Gonna take my vitamins.

Dear Father,

please be with me today. Let me do a good job on my first day as Anabels nanny. Let me remember to do everything right. Let Anabel stay in a good mood. Please let me get a callback for an audition. Please let me life be happier. To me, I would be happier if I had more time to myself and more money. I would like to get a massage, pedi/mani/ body wrap and facial…but I just simply don’t want to spend that much money. I rather use it on my career. I pray for my family. We are all distant from each other and it sucks. I pray Miss Clark..she seems stressed out. I pray for the kids at my school. I pray for a peace that surpasses all understanding. Most of all, I pray for my faith and confidence to increase. I love you. Amen