Morgen visit

Morgen my second oldest came to see today. All in all it was a good visit even if I couldn’t offer him dinner or something.

I really hate what my life has become. I hate that I no longer have Harmonia to talk to. I hate that I have to wait yet one more week to go to work. At a job I know I’m going to dread. I’m really trying to wrap my head around the positive, really really trying to.

As far as job searching others, nothing. I didn’t get the Sherwin Williams job. Figured I wouldn’t, I just feel so useless and odd. I wonder if Country fair realizes it hired a creepy 53 old.

I miss Morgen already. I miss all my boys. I miss being someone who made a better impact on them than I do currently.