08.12.2024

I got up and clocked in this morning but then slept from 10 to 1 today. What. A. Bum. We were up late at the hospital last night because another family we’re friends with, their son had a really bad seizure. I guess that’s a valid excuse to be tired but I still feel like a darn bum. I’m trying to get my notes in now so I can be done with work. I have such a hard time concentrating though.

I’m beginning to get older. I’ll be 37 this year. So I’m in this weird headspace wondering about our graduating class, about success and what defines it, about how I should judge myself or see myself. And then I just kind of have some morbid curiosity… like who has a criminal record? I’m not good at looking that stuff up. I should research it. I know one “cool” kid from my graduating class wound up hooked on meth and then on dialysis. I’m sure there’s probably charges somewhere in his life because rarely does meth use come without them. But then I’m sure there are people who are doing fine. Stephanie is a PA now. I fall somewhere in the average. I haven’t gotten my BA yet, but I’m also not in any debt. I don’t make a lot of money but we still have a house and a dog and I’m not drugged out or catching charges. I’m just so curious where everyone landed.

Alright. Back to work with me.