about the wackness…

great movie i thought. i really really liked it. it was really a movie about feeling. i dunno, just really connected to it.

my old buddy derm hooked up with a chick old enough to be his mom on saturday. i think it’s gonna prove to be a legendary moment in the lives of my friends.

i feel really open right now. that movie sort of ripped me open. i haven’t felt connected to anyone or anything really for awhile. i’ve been withdrawn from a lot of things in my life-my mom and dad, my brother and my 6 month old niece, my friends, probably even myself. it’s a weird feeling. i can’t put my finger on what the problem is. i’ve just gone into this shell of not caring. i’ve been drinking a lot. that’s really helping to ignore whatever it is i can’t confront. i don’t know. just sad really. i think i’m sad inside. not depressed. just sad somewhere inside me. like a good hug would fix it. but i just can’t reach out anymore.

good to know this is what comes out when i try to write about how i feel. 🙂

blah, i don’t know i guess.

edit: the playlist i have on my front page really holds up.
i totally miss hanging out on the old OD.
28 is a large number.
my writing is fairly interesting, sort of surprising.
damn i’m old.