The Truth

Well I went and talked to his mom. I found out the whole, horrible, awful truth.

He was still with is ‘ex’. The whole time. I found out that he’s a liar, a manipulator, and a user. He wooed me with words and made me believe his lies, and against my better judgement I fell for him anyways, becuz I saw something in him that obviously wasn’t there.

He apparently has stolen his mothers money, property, and even wedding rings, to pawn them off for money for crack.

He led me to believe that he loved me and wanted to make things work between us. And when his mom called his ex’s house and he answered, that spoke volumes right there. He apparently went back to her the very night he left me. After kissing me goodbye and saying he loved me. The worst part of it was, even when his mom demanded he give me an explanation, he flatly refused to even speak to me. What a coward. What type of man breaks a woman’s heart and then is too cowardly to give her a reason?

I really didn’t deserve this at all. My life was going well before he came along, and now he put a big dent in my life. But I won’t cry any more tears for what was, and no more tears for the pain he caused me, because it isn’t worth it.

In my own way, I did exact revenge. His mom let me take some of his things becuz he owed me some money. I also got back all the things I’d given him (except for a couple of burned cds, but that doesn’t matter at all) I also sent his ‘ex’ all the emails, messages, and comments he sent me, including all the rude things he said about her. What she does with it is up to her. If that’s the type of man she wants, then they deserve each other.

Now that this terrible week is coming to an end, I’m finally letting myself heal. Last night I went out to a pub where some live bands were playing, and I had a good time. Tonight I’m going to go out with some other friends, and try to get back into living my life again.

No more tears for Chris.

No more heartache.