Valentine’s Day
The big day is looming on the horizon.
A day to remind me that I’m ALONE. Like I need any reminders.
Last year I wasn’t alone…I was with the love of my life. Unfortunately we broke up a couple weeks later, after being together for almost a year and a half. He ripped my heart out with what he did, and it took me a long time to get over it. I haven’t so much as kissed anyone since we broke up, and it’s almost been a year. How sad is that?
The other day at work I looked up and made direct eye contact with some guy who had come into the hospital. He looked so much like my ex I took me a second to realize it wasn’t him. I just sat there for a minute, and felt a pang in my heart. Why do I even care anymore? I really need to get over it permanently. I’m never gonna be with him again. We’re never gonna reconcile. It’s too late and we can never go back.
I need to find someone new, but I’m just too damn picky. I don’t get out much anyways, and when I do go out I’m pretty much just meeting bar star guys so nothing ever works out. I’m not slutty enough I guess. Just don’t like the idea of being with someone I don’t know. I’m not into the casual shit..never have been.
I’m looking for something real….that’s why I’m alone.
I spent months after me and the ex broke up, making out with random guys, because it made me feel better…But now? Pushing 2 years later? It’s a little lonely. I’m now understanding your need for something real…Just takes some time, I guess! Hang in there, and INGNORE V-Day!!
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i used to feel the same, i felt like i was hallucinating her for years, once a week i would almost have a heart attack thinking she was walking towards or away from me? someone said that it takes about the same amount of time that you had been together to get over it? who knows, but i hope he doesn’t turn out to have been the love of your life. good luck, and life.
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In Argentina we have no V-day. It doesn’t exist -well, DIDN’T exist since brands brought it here in order to sell V-day stupidities. Just imagine you are here. It’s just a creation! Some couples sharing flowers and hearts could be feeling lonelier than you, but no one notices. Just don’t get caught by the fear of staying lonely, cause you won’t!!
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I believe in the sun,though it never brightens my day I believe in love,though it’s always gone away I believe in hapiness,though I rarely feel it I believe in the rain,because I can see the darkness from where I sit I believe in you without knowing why I believe in me though sometimes I want to die I believe in peace,though I cause the violence I believe in God,though he takes a vow of silence.
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