Halloween

Last night we all went to the Max to celebrate Halloween. My bro came from Vic and we got a good crowd of people to come out and I had a pretty good night overall.

Caelin and Corey showed up around 12:30ish. I couldn’t get up the guts to go talk to Caelin, I don’t know why. I totally got too shy and didn’t know how to approach him. I usually don’t get that shy but I just couldn’t do it, and I kinda pissed myself off.

At one point, he was sitting in his usual spot and I walked by, pretending I didn’t see him. He saw me though. I was dressed as a ‘Bride of Darkness’, a costume I picked up at the last minute. It was a pretty cool dress. I could see him watch me as I walked by, but I couldn’t even turn and look at him or anything. I guess I just pretend I don’t care most of the time, I didn’t want him to know I even liked him.

I watched him out of the corner of my eye for awhile, and I know he had been glancing over at me as well from across the room. I was kicking myself in the ass till around 1:20 that I still hadn’t talked to him yet and I was running out of time.

Eventually I ended up at the foosball table and was watching some friends play a game, when Kelly came over and said "Caelin likes you". I stood there stunned for a second. Turns out she’d been talking to him and had brought me up in conversation (I love her, best friend ever lol) And he confessed he really liked me. At that point I got all nervous and had to go smoke, and we all ended up outside. Caelin didn’t come out though he was still playing foosball. After I smoked a few puffs of my cigar I went back inside and could see him over by the coatcheck. I just decided at that point that I had to get over my shyness so I went over and talked to him. Caelin asked if I wanted to play a game of foosball and a couple friends came over and we started playing. Of course, me and Caelin were on the same team.

The game ended, we got our butts kicked and then someone else joined Caelin. But he wanted me to come back and play some more.  Who was I to say no to that? Lol. Our arms kept brushing together, and Michele, this slutty friend of Jessica’s that I can’t stand is totally jealous of me. She used to like him alot and it wasn’t mutual so she got her feelings all hurt. Even though she has a boyfriend she’s still got a thing for Caelin and stood there staring at me while we were playing foosball.

Later when me and him were standing together she came and wedged herself between us. Man that shit needs to stop. I wanna plant my foot in her face for that shit. Jessica says that’s just how she is, apparently she even does that to Jessica and her bf sometimes.

We all ended up at the Verse for coffee later, I didn’t get much time to talk to Caelin but Jessica got a picture of us together. I just never got the chance to tell him how I felt about him. That bitch kept coming in and out trying to get in between us. So I think Jessica is going to talk to him today and just straight out tell him I like him and try to arrange something for us to do as a group so I can hang out with him away from that slut.

Of course, I heard some shit about him last night too. But it was an ex that was saying it, and ex’s are biased, so I take things at face value. I prefer to make my own opinions about people. So we’ll see.

But anyways, I really like him, and he likes me. I don’t care about the negative he said-she said bullshit. I just know how I feel and what I want, and what I want is him.