You wouldn’t know love if..

This is a convo I found on my bf’s comp. It’s a convo between him and a ‘friend’ of his..this convo took place the day after our 1 yr anniversary……

[01:33:52 PM] Ashlynn (w): hi
[01:34:01 PM] :[**Emperor : what the hell im online?
[01:34:05 PM] :[**Emperor : MMMm sexxy pic
[01:34:10 PM] Ashlynn (w): thanks
[01:34:24 PM] :[**Emperor : U never gave me that one :@
[01:35:18 PM] :[**Emperor : hehehe
[01:35:22 PM] :[**Emperor : What you up too?
[01:35:41 PM] Ashlynn (w): slitting my wrists
[01:35:41 PM] Ashlynn (w): what are you up to?
[01:36:17 PM] :[**Emperor : uhh… just waking up trying to hack an
              old dutch contest
[01:36:28 PM] :[**Emperor : i did it like 10 times but now i cant get
              any more codes to work
[01:36:28 PM] Ashlynn (w): cool]
[01:36:36 PM] Ashlynn (w): oh
[01:36:50 PM] :[**Emperor : slitting your wrists
[01:36:52 PM] You have successfully received C:Documents and
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              Files4.JPG from Ashlynn (w).
[01:36:57 PM] Ashlynn (w): yea
[01:37:13 PM] :[**Emperor : the reason being?
[01:37:24 PM] Ashlynn (w): i hate life
[01:37:43 PM] :[**Emperor : poor girl
[01:37:52 PM] :[**Emperor : still having troule with whats his ass
[01:37:56 PM] Ashlynn (w): oh well
[01:37:57 PM] Ashlynn (w): nope
[01:38:04 PM] Ashlynn (w): im having trouble with school
[01:38:11 PM] Ashlynn (w): and my cousin died yesterday morning
[01:39:07 PM] :[**Emperor : wow shitty
[01:39:19 PM] :[**Emperor : you guys close at all?
[01:39:26 PM] Ashlynn (w): not really
[01:39:38 PM] Ashlynn (w): but last year her brother blew his head off
              on christmas morning
[01:39:49 PM] :[**Emperor : omg 😐
[01:39:54 PM] :[**Emperor : thats sadistic
[01:40:53 PM] Ashlynn (w): yeah and the year before that my friend
              hung himself right after christmas
[01:41:14 PM] :[**Emperor : wtf
[01:41:20 PM] :[**Emperor : grewsome
[01:41:35 PM] :[**Emperor : whys everyone taking the pussy way out
[01:41:40 PM] Ashlynn (w): i know
[01:42:03 PM] :[**Emperor : you dont get to learn your reason for life
              if you just trow it away
[01:43:11 PM] Ashlynn (w): i know
[01:43:38 PM] :[**Emperor : whoa this is cool….
[01:43:45 PM] :[**Emperor : I went to school with these two…
[01:43:47 PM] :[**Emperor : http://www.thebakertwins.com/
[01:44:47 PM] :[**Emperor : that’s nuts they doing it because they are
              such good people like they have this amazing career
              started and i get to talk to them whenever I want and it
               feels like they actually listen so they havent had the
              fame go to their head
[01:45:05 PM] :[**Emperor : like they actually replied to my hi5 right
              away with deep insite
[01:45:40 PM] :[**Emperor : haha know what carlos said?
[01:45:57 PM] Ashlynn (w): what
[01:46:27 PM] * :[**Emperor of the Cold Wastes**:[ We Share… We all
              die. is now Away
[01:47:38 PM] :[**Emperor : he’s like yah Ashlynn looks pretty good
              now.  I got to hang out with her lots in Frase Lake. 
              To bad i was still with Sam because there was that
              feeling where your both like I want to fuck and I know
              you want to fuck but were friends and im with her
[01:47:40 PM] :[**Emperor : lol
[01:47:56 PM] :[**Emperor : I don’t blame him but I would have had to
              cheat on sam n fuck your brains out
[01:48:45 PM] Ashlynn (w): lolo thats awesome
[01:48:56 PM] Ashlynn (w): yeah i couldnt believe that whore
[01:49:19 PM] :[**Emperor : i kinda feel responsible for it but at the
              same time it may have been imperventable
[01:50:03 PM] :[**Emperor : Because before her left im like mybe I
              should keep her companyy while he’s gone so she doesn’t
              try something stupid… but then at the same time if i
              would have been keeping her company it would have been
              me she cheated on him with so mybe its for the better
[01:50:21 PM] Ashlynn (w): awe
[01:50:26 PM] Ashlynn (w): what a whore
[01:50:44 PM] Ashlynn (w): fuck it is really pissing me off that i
              cant find my razor blades
[01:51:06 PM] :[**Emperor : NO
[01:51:08 PM] :[**Emperor : BAD GIRL
[01:52:10 PM] Ashlynn (w): i really want to cut
[01:52:16 PM] Ashlynn (w): what e;se can i use?
[01:52:40 PM] :[**Emperor : NO
[01:52:59 PM] :[**Emperor : usually i just light one up whem im
              feeling like that n hide in the dark corner
[01:53:06 PM] Ashlynn (w): yes
[01:53:13 PM] Ashlynn (w): i dont have any
[01:54:45 PM] :[**Emperor : AWE 🙁
[01:54:49 PM] :[**Emperor : I’de sahre with you 😀
[01:56:45 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[01:58:04 PM] :[**Emperor : im trying to quit
[01:58:07 PM] :[**Emperor : so fucking hard
[01:59:32 PM] :[**Emperor : so whats going on with school
[01:59:42 PM] :[**Emperor : how come your having trouble?
[02:00:44 PM] Ashlynn (w): a stup[id cunt is spreading rumors and
              making my life hell
[02:01:39 PM] :[**Emperor : awweeeee
[02:01:46 PM] :[**Emperor : fuckign god hey people just cant grow up
[02:01:57 PM] :[*

*Emperor : this one is in college and still makes
              rumours?
[02:02:23 PM] Ashlynn (w): yes
[02:02:32 PM] :[**Emperor : fucking sad
[02:02:44 PM] Ashlynn (w): i know
[02:04:26 PM] :[**Emperor : whats is she saying?
[02:05:33 PM] Ashlynn (w): i dont know
[02:06:10 PM] :[**Emperor : but then how do you know?
[02:06:50 PM] Ashlynn (w): because she told me that i am saying stuff
              about her
[02:06:56 PM] :[**Emperor : wtf
[02:07:15 PM] :[**Emperor : can many people look you right in the eyes
              when talking to you?
[02:07:34 PM] Ashlynn (w): yes
[02:07:51 PM] :[**Emperor : surprising with your scary soul catching
              eyes
[02:08:02 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol are they?
[02:08:16 PM] :[**Emperor : you couldn’t look into mine for very long
[02:08:27 PM] :[**Emperor : you used to just quickyl look then turn
              away
[02:08:38 PM] :[**Emperor : but that alriught i got scary ones
[02:09:03 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:09:14 PM] :[**Emperor : carlos said they turned cat on him before
[02:09:36 PM] :[**Emperor : and i felt weird when he said that like i
              felt liek i was hunting or something
[02:10:25 PM] Ashlynn (w): hmmm
[02:10:57 PM] :[**Emperor : i think it when i turn my head downwards
              and peer up and then turn sideways like im trying to see
              past something
[02:11:06 PM] Ashlynn (w): hmmmm
[02:11:49 PM] :[**Emperor : fuck i tripped out pretty bad yesterday
              night it felt like someone was petting my thumb
[02:11:59 PM] :[**Emperor : and then i did it so myself and it queered
              me out
[02:12:12 PM] :[**Emperor : iim pretty sure there is a spirit here
[02:12:28 PM] Ashlynn (w): wow
[02:12:32 PM] Ashlynn (w): probab;ly
[02:13:03 PM] :[**Emperor : i sometimes will be in my kitchen and then
              feel overwhelmed and then my hair stands up everywhere
[02:13:15 PM] Ashlynn (w): wow
[02:13:18 PM] Ashlynn (w): freaky
[02:13:48 PM] :[**Emperor : my nipples jsut went hard and my hair
              stood on end ewhen i said that
[02:13:53 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:13:58 PM] :[**Emperor : i feel like someones sitting on the couch
              behind me
[02:14:14 PM] :[**Emperor : I always see weird light anomolies that my
              cat can also see
[02:14:26 PM] :[**Emperor : but Kristel never sees these things
[02:14:52 PM] Ashlynn (w):   wow
[02:15:22 PM] :[**Emperor : the other day i walked to 7-11 in my
              boxers at 2 in the morning
[02:15:28 PM] :[**Emperor : it was pretty fun
[02:16:11 PM] :[**Emperor : did i tell you i got full time at a liquor
              store?
[02:16:20 PM] Ashlynn (w): nope!
[02:16:31 PM] :[**Emperor : well i did
[02:16:35 PM] Ashlynn (w): congrats
[02:16:40 PM] :[**Emperor : it ius liuterally next door to my
              apartments
[02:16:45 PM] Ashlynn (w): sweet
[02:17:08 PM] :[**Emperor : and kris is talking about moving to her
              parents come janruary
[02:17:48 PM] :[**Emperor : i really want to keep this apartment but i
              don’t think i can without a partners help
[02:17:55 PM] Ashlynn (w): awe
[02:18:07 PM] :[**Emperor : and its only one bedroom so i cant even
              ask carlos to move in
[02:18:19 PM] Ashlynn (w): awe
[02:19:23 PM] :[**Emperor : i want to keep this apartment though
              because its so fuckign cute and the second floor  view
              is amazing you get to see the river and the gardens in
              the back and you see a bunch of nice houses across the
              river
[02:19:41 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:19:47 PM] :[**Emperor : but best of all the sun pours in on the
              deck come summer and i plan to have a bunch of marryjane
              plants out there
[02:19:53 PM] :[**Emperor : i have one growing still
[02:20:13 PM] Ashlynn (w): oh
[02:20:15 PM] :[**Emperor : but next yeqar i want like 5 and start
              them wayt earlier so i can harvest lots of bud
[02:20:48 PM] :[**Emperor : what do you pay for your place?
[02:20:58 PM] Ashlynn (w): 600 a month its a trailer
[02:21:05 PM] Ashlynn (w): and that includes everything
[02:21:08 PM] :[**Emperor : and you pay that by yourself?
[02:21:11 PM] Ashlynn (w): no
[02:21:16 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol my parents pay for me
[02:21:25 PM] :[**Emperor : dammit im moving in with you
[02:21:27 PM] :[**Emperor : 😛
[02:21:55 PM] :[**Emperor : ill pay the other half
[02:22:03 PM] Ashlynn (w): you would move to pg
[02:22:06 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:22:10 PM] :[**Emperor : haha uhhhhh…….
[02:22:18 PM] :[**Emperor : you would be worth the move
[02:22:25 PM] Ashlynn (w): awe aidan !
[02:22:29 PM] :[**Emperor : and i hate prince but you would be able to
              keep me company
[02:22:36 PM] :[**Emperor : and keep the bed warm
[02:22:54 PM] Ashlynn (w): lmao!
[02:22:58 PM] Ashlynn (w): i have a boyfriend!
[02:23:04 PM] :[**Emperor : so….
[02:23:10 PM] :[**Emperor : hes a dick
[02:23:27 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:23:31 PM] Ashlynn (w): im gonna go have a bath!
[02:23:37 PM] Ashlynn (w): that will relax me
[02:23:46 PM] :[**Emperor : damn let that water pour over your hot
              naked body
[02:23:51 PM] :[**Emperor : ill be thinking of yah 😉
[02:23:53 PM] Ashlynn (w): lol
[02:23:56 PM] Ashlynn (w): thanks?
[02:23:56 PM] :[**Emperor : Chow babe :[
[02:23:59 PM] Ashlynn (w): bye :[

Aidan…you wouldn’t know love if it stabbed you in the heart.