Wasted…
That is what I feel this weekend was!
Okay…Friday he was drunk…but on Saturday when we went on our trip we talked and decided that he would work on his drinking and limit it to 
Got to
and went on a Game Drive and saw some animals… And damn was it cold! I was freezing and everyone else on the trip was too. Thankfully we stopped for some Wine and Hot Drinks. I had a glass of
He had a glass in front of me and when I went back to ride he obviously drank more as his mood was completely different afterwards…
After arriving back, I went to get my Raincoat from the boot of my car and he was meant to follow me, after which we were going to have dinner. Well, he claims he got lost while following me and, in the end, went back to the room.
Get back to the room and as per usual when he is drunk/hangover he gets 
. Now I am in no mood…so I shower and curl up into bed and read my kindle while he snores next to me.
Woke up and rushed to pack and have breakfast so could go on the morning drive.
At breakfast it was agreed upon that he would not even have that one drink a month and would work on stopping completely.
He would live outside the flat more…go to boxing…make friends outside of family…
Get to the city…shop for food…get home and unpack and clean the kitchen etc… he decides to go for a drive. A few hours later I see that he is sitting in his car…a few minutes (+/- 40 min) he is still sitting in his car. And so, I know immediately!
He gets back into the flat and I ask him. 
He tells me.
Carrie Underwood – Wasted (Official Video) (youtube.com)
Last night I poured my heart out to my sister and she gave me the number of someone to speak to.
Spoke to her a lot last night and I have decided.
Last night I made an appointment to meet with other 
and then I will see her soon to talk about how to work on myself, so I stop going back to him and work on lifting myself up and being okay on my own and eventually either help him correctly or officially end my relationship with him.
