Sunshine!

The days have settled down into a comfortable, though rather silent routine.

Sitting in the garden in the gust of the winds yesterday was quite different.  Even though the days were getting warmer, the strong winds brings the temperature down.  But I finally could not resist the insistent sunshine, and hauled the outdoor umbrella to the greening garden, set up a camping chair, and simply brought my lunch out.

It was lovely, though precarious.  I did not know if the winds would bring the unbrella crashing down, so I had one arm held up most of the time.  To catch it, if I could.  But eventually when it simply swayed in the noon sun, I began to feel the grass tickling my feet, and somehow feel the invisible time that was not apparent to me indoors.

As the clouds go on morphing to so many shapes, something shifted within me.  It is an aspect of me that has gone missing since the upsurge of the digital world.  It has a certain beauty that cannot be described in any way, the best I can describe it, is the sense of time, slowly passing on while the clouds frolic silently in the sky.

Eventually I began to see the colours of the flowers that I would like to plant in the far corner, to see myself painting in the open.  I may never, but it was beautiful just to sit in that dream.  I have always been a dreamy kid, who had to work hard to keep people around me happy for the most part of my life.  So, what a return to be!  It’s like going back to who I had always been, always made to be, and always loved to be.

I rejoice in my solidarity.