Lord Help Me!

This man drives me insane.  MY DAUGHTER STAYED up shes is 1 crying pretty much all night starting at 1 to like 5 am. This man doesnt work, I work at 830 am and I get my kids up for school and dressed and out the door by 730. He is laying there wide awake while I am trying to sleep, and hes just playing his little stupid games on his phone. I said why dont you take her to the living room since youre just on your phone she can play in the living room and you can play your games and he ignores me. Well it pisses me off. Im laying there getting more and more aggravated, I said don’t ask me to use my vehicle tomorrow if you can ‘t help me. He says BITCH FK YOU! you think im some hoe you wanna try to handle me like im some bitch im about to start putting my fkn hands on you again. Youre about to get beat tf up I promise you. u want me to get up and take her to another room why don you get your ass up and go to another room. hes yelling and screaming being a fucking dickhead the entire time threatening me says not to ask him to wash a plate change  a diaper to feed the babies to help me with anything because hes going to show me whats it like to do it all on my own….HELLO HELLEN I ALREADY FRIGGIN DO. Yes every now and again you assist me with duties, but more times than not HE’S BEEN IN PRISON and ive been doing it out here by myself. My best friend helped when she moved in, but before she moved in I was alone. I did this alone. He’s here an I DO THIS alone most of the time about 90 percent is all me. So i just stayed quiet beating him up in my head. He left me and the babies there and went to go play his game somewhere else. I stayed up with my daughter until about 5 woke up at 7 and have been up. I am taking her to the dr in a bit because she is sick. I can’t believe how ugly someone can be, like he used to be a loving person, and He still can be, but the ugly heart he has for me now is infuriating. If you DO NOT LOVE ME IF IM SO FUCKING HORRIBLE why the hell are you still with me? Why do you try to make me believe things are going to be great when you no damn well you can’t get your act together. I’m so frustrated flusttered and just annoyed right now. EVIL lives here, and it scares me. If i had the money to pick up and leave I would, I’d just pack up and bounce out of this damn town. I had to leave work early AGAIN because i have to take her to the doctor because God Forbid you ask him to do it. I have been at this company 2 months and after training i have not been able to work my full 40 but Im expected to pay rent, bills, buy the stuff everyone needs and wants, food etc and I am making 200 checks weekly like WTF….man I need my 40 Im just tired of everything at this point. I wish we could help who we fell in love with because this would be a different scenario right now. Id have fallen in love with myself and school.