Sitting & waiting & thinking

 Today I’m getting new tyres so I don’t have any more spin outs lol.

The mechanic has made me wait for ages so I’m just having coffee and trying to pass the time. My mum is very depressed again and I feel bad but I don’t know what to do to help. I past the point I don’t even know what to say anymore. Her disease has taken everything from her. I have felt like she doesn’t care about her kids at all some times. Other times I feel very loved. She always threatens suicide and it’s really hard to handle. You’re meant to not get emotional but how do you not react emotionally when it’s your mum? 

Today I went to my group thing and it was really good. I don’t want to elaborate anymore on a public entry but yeah. I really enjoyed it 🙂