TIRED
😓HE STILL SAYS HES LEAVING, TODAY HE SAID HE NEVER LOVED ME IN 8 YEARS. HE SAID THAT HE SLEPT WITH SOMEONE IN OUR HOUSE YESTERDAY AND HAS SLEPT WITH SOMEONE IN MY CAR. HE SAID IM SHIT I AM TRASH. SAID FUCK MY FEELINGS THAT IM A BI** SAID A BUNCH OF UGLY STUFF ABOUT USING ME AND HOW IM A DUMBASS WHO ALWAYS BELIEVES HIM WHEN HES IN JAIL. NOW HES ASLEEP AFTER A 3 DAY BINGE. I KNOW LEAVE LEAVE ITS NOT THAT SIMPLE AND ITS NOT AS EASY AS IT SEEMS. ITS COMPLICATED. MY HEART HURTS AND I GOTTA DO HOMEWORK I BEEN IN BED ALL DAY. SO I JUST NEEDED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST. IM MISERABLE AND SAD. IT ALL STARTED BECAUSE WE SLEPT TOGETHER LAST NIGHT AND RIGHT AFTER HE LEFT ME BY MYSELF TO GO LOCK HIMSELF IN THE RESTROOM FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT. I SAID THAT MAKES ME FEEL SO UGLY TO HAVE SEX AND BE LEFT SO YOU CAN LOCK YOURSELF IN THE RESTROOM AND BE ON YOUR PHONES. HE SAID DONT YOU EVER JUST STFU?! STFU! FK UR FEELINGS BIT** ITS FK U THATS WHY. THEN HE SAID I WAS TRYING TO HANDLE HIM…HE DID ADMIT TAHT WHILE HES IN THE RESTROOM HES ON POF FACEBOOK SNAP INSTA ETC…AND THAT HE IS TALKING TO SOMEONE ELSE….HES SETTING UP HIS NEW HOME I GUESS, SO HE CAN RUN FROM PAROLE LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES.
*hugs* Do you have someone to ☎️? If you want to talk dm me.
@cemeterydawn idk how to message on here lol
@jjde0514 We can chat here, too… you need some help. I hate seeing him play you like a damn guitar.
@cemeterydawn yeah…its a horrible feeling. Every day not knowing which version of him I am going to get, I’m always the bad guy in his stories
@jjde0514 That’s what he thinks you are. What you think of you is what is important here. Loss of self can be devastating. I know.
@cemeterydawn Yes, I’ve completely lost myself. I can see it in my eyes when i look in the mirror. I can see it in my pictures. i have lost who i am completely, and i’ve lost all light in my eyes.
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I’m sure it’s very complicated, but the one thing that is clear is that you need to put a lot of distance between you and him. Do you have any friends or family you can stay with?
@ravdiablo i have family and friends but we’ve cried wolf way too many times for that. I also have 4 kids so its hard for anyone to want to take in 4 kids plus myself
@jjde0514 OMG, this is even harder than I thought. Is he a threat to the children?
@ravdiablo no not at all, he’s never once been ugly to the kids its me he holds the animocity towards and never in front of my kids either.
@jjde0514 You’ve got to protect yourself. Have you spoken to friends or members of your family about this?
@ravdiablo yes they are aware
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