Introduction;

Hi there,

My name is N ofcourse that´s not my real name, but I guess I feel more comfortable this way..

First of all I want to say i´m very new to this, so I don´t really know what to say..

But nothing is wrong so here I go, i´m 25 years old living in the Netherlands born and raised in a small city near the sea, I live on my own with my two cats, currently single but kindoff starting to like it this way. My English probably would be a little bit off but I hope it´s understandable.

whenever I wanted to write something off my chest I normally would take my journal and write whatever was on my mind, never really thought about putting it online or even letting anybody know how I feel, but I guess there is nothing wrong with sharing your story.                                                                                          This way I hope to educate or even to be educated by your stories and advices. 

Life has been very depressing and hard so far, but I guess i´m not the only one.                                                                                                                                             

It´s currently 22:48 in The Netherlands and i’m sitting on my bed thinking about what i’m gonna do tomorrow haven’t been working for months and I know it’s bad to say but to be honest there is not much motivation to do anything.. I do miss working a lot but I also just want to sleep and be in bed all day.                                          The only thing I do is watch series, eat or read, anything to escape this reality.                                                                                                                                              That’s really what I always do I run away for any problem or anything that comes to close, i’ve always been doing this I guess.                                                               

There is really to much to even tell you or even say but I will keep it short today, i don’t really know if anyone will read this but I hope this will help my journey on finding myself and maybe even little bit reínventing :)…                                                                                                                                                                                It feels weird writing again and especially because it’s not really writing but typing and then i’m not even talking about the fact that it’s going to be online…

I said I would keep it short so I will try to really keep this introduction short i’m going to finish my Documentary on Netflix now and then sleep, i can’t wait to tell you all my deepeest secrets or feelings but i’m also scared, scared that someone will judge me.                                                                                                                  For now i will listen to the voice deep within screaming to do whatever i want and for once not giving a ‘F’ for what anyone has to say. 

I don’t know if anyone will read this but for the one who does Thankyou for taking time to read my ‘small’ introduction.

Goodnight, and talk to you tomorrow.