1/11/07

I am a drinker at heart. My left side goes numb as the poisons from several bites enter my blood stream. Toes tingle with gang green. Fingers stain with nicotine. Tough pads of skin on my thumb from rubbing a mouse pad.

The reflection does one good, but only if it could be giving a dose of shrooms to boost the effect. Tomorrow is the day that things will change. Tomorrow I walk free from the chains and through a door standing wide open.

I look at all the junk around my apartment and it makes me smile. My passions surround me in a litter of commotion. I jump from one project to the next. My mind reeling with ideas. Motions that expand to overwhelm all those senses.

Gone is that anger and that resentment. My 20’s angst has disappeared. There is always a question of why, but the over all drive of anger has dispersed.