Sunday 10/29/23

11:01a.m. I had a very bad night. I laid in urine and feces all night long. Then I couldn’t sleep. I was worried all night about Chococolatechip and her deal with Frontier. I kept thinking about it and thinking about it. The more I thought about it the more it sounded like a very bad idea. Frontier couldn’t tell Chococolatechip how much the bill will be or when it will be due. They did not know what was in her new cable package. The whole thing just didn’t sound right.

Then the aides finally came in at four in the morning. It was way too early and I wasn’t in the best of moods. But I was changed and they got me in my wheelchair by 4:30. I was dead to this world. I slept in my wheelchair for about an hour. I still felt like a complete sht. I wanted to crawl into a hole.

Then Chococolatechip called. She is going to cancel the order with Frontier. I was relieved to hear this., very relieved. She said!she just couldn’t afford it. I said the whole thing seemed strange to me. Chococolatechip said both Comcast and Frontier can shove their services up their butts. I said I don’t blame you one bit. This relieved my anxiety a bit but I felt emotionally exhausted.

I was able to get some more sleep. I slept until breakfast . Breakfast was lousy. I couldn’t eggs. They served bacon which I ate. I also had a piece of toast. The coffee was cold but I drank it anyway. Then the bacon caused me to pass gas which was extremely painfull.

I didn’t think I was going to make it to the coffee social but I did. I surprised myself. I had a good time. They gave me two cups of hot coffee. The coffee turned my shitty mood around I felt like my old self. I read my book had my caffeine fix then made it back to my room. All is right with the world.

1:09p.m. I had a roast, carrots, potatoes, a dinner roll and carrot cake for lunch. I ate everything they served without getting bloated. This was the most I’ve had to eat for a meal in a long time. I hope I’m getting better.

My morning sucked. I hope the rest of the day gets better. I plan on defusing. I think I need an hour or so y myself. I hope to end this time reading my book The Waste Lands. I’d like to finish this book by tomorrow. Then take a break from the Dark Tower novels and read Grisham for awhile.

By the way, T.S. Eliot wrote a now famous poem called The Waste Lands

1 The Burial of the Dead

April is the cruellest month, breeding

Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing Memory with desire, stirring

Dull roots with Spring rain.

Winter kept us warm, covering Earth in forgetful snow feeding a little life with dried tubers

It’s a very long poem but worth reading in my opinion. The above was a half ass attempt to copy it. Anyway I wonder if Mr. King got the idea of the title from Eliot.