Lazy Sunday, kinda

It’s raining so I’m not too sure how to go about the festivities this evening.

I guess we can go as planned and then go to my mom’s if it’s short or postponed.

So, I’m glad I did take my kids Friday and yesterday. No word from him at all, but I am hopeful today. I want to reach out but I’m still being told to let him do it.

Idk tho

He said he would be free this week but I feel like the rebound, now and maybe he just went back to his long term gf because I really have nothing to offer that would appeal to that lifestyle

They say I shouldn’t talk down, and that maybe I have exactly what he’s been looking for, but somehow I really doubt it

I’m protecting me and my kids

I know him well but my judgement gets clouded a lot

I just don’t need anymore damn lessons.

I want forever and I want happy

Communication is off, tho

He’s going thru depression, I do understand this but even w that, he shouldn’t be not reaching out.

Okay, maybe when I told him I wanted to take it slow, he thought this

Maybe he’s pushing me away

That’s all an excuse! My mind is screaming.

If you want it, you will

But I’m definitely not putting in effort to get no return.

I will give the benefit of doubt and wait quietly

He will communicate when he wants. Let’s not force this connection.

If it’s meant to be, no force will be necessary.

Siiiigh

 

Gotta figure this out

And what to make for dinner.