dammit

im so upset. partially with myself.

im stupid and its my fault, but i was hoping to be able to manipulate the situation to my liking. i missed the enrollment for ins by three god damn days. i called and spoke with a rep on the sign up hot line, and there wasnt anything she could do, bc the co pulled my info from her server. im pretty sure she would have helped me if she could have. so then i phoned hr.and the DFCs there just basically laughed at me for not reading my paperwork sooner. i cried and everything. it really meant nothing to them. the crying at least got me transferred to a supervisor, who told me to email her a message, stating my case. im sure she just wanted to laugh at me more. DFC. corporate assholes. whatever. i exited the phone call, and was crying so loudly, MD came into my quarters to have a look at me. i recounted the situation, and she said all i could do was send the message, so i did. im not sure if it will do any good, but i guess its worth a shot. i dont even know if the benes include mental health care. that’s really all im interested in. altho- vision and dental would be helpful as well.

worst case scenario, the DFCs reject my request, and i have to wait til march, which is less than 4 months away. ive already gotten horribly sick once, so i should be okay. but seriously. this is some stupid shit. i wanted to call 2 weeks ago, and i had misplaced my paperwork. everyday since then i was looking for it. then i found it and most days i was too exhausted to do anything about it. today was my first day off in a week and a half.

but none of this matters. not one bit.

i think im going to go cry in the shower.