tsuchi #1

[01]

self-victimization, whether intentional or not, is essential to escaping moral ambiguity because without anything hurting us we have no immediate basis for labelling anything as morally unacceptable, and thus have no sense of a moral “right” to guide our actions.

[02]

this kind of morality is hardly the kind of universal morality some muse about – but human nature is such that morality as reflection of anything but the most immediate, most subjective sense of “right” can only be unsubstantiated speculation (albeit sometimes given a self-magnifying real-ness by whim).

[03]

disdain for self-victimization weakens the moral foundation of an individual’s subjective world, but ultimately leaves behind not nothingness but an amorphous white-noise gray – confusion in one’s very core.

[04]

once again i’m seeing a loop, a cycle of creation and destruction, and can’t help wondering if it is possible to reach a permanent equilibrium in which one is neither deluded nor distraught.