Oh boy….

This time, I’m not gonna eff this up.

So, a dude I’ve known from campground days, we’re like in our mid 40s now, we were kids.

Anyway… so we kept talking about hooking up. But i wouldn’t when i was w my girls dad. And he had someone too. Well, he showed up a few times but nothing ever happened.  I was a bit torn on it, and he was, too. Anyway, the last time was two summers ago. I was kinda pissed at that one, because he like did a 360 from what he said and i told him off and stopped talking to him altogether but remained friends online.

A few weeks ago, I started to bother him online again. Just to say hi.

But it just seemed empty conversation.  But i kept it up, he said he wasn’t feeling well one night and i just would check on him periodically

A few days ago, he mentioned having a biopsy and was in pain from it. Well today, we got to talking and i asked how he was doing and blah blah blah. Found out hes single. Found out he still wants me. I told him ya, and hes like he had no idea and i said nah, he wouldn’t because I’m not gonna be anyones side dish. He reiterated that he was single. Then we started talking and he wanted to see me today, but i couldn’t so we shall see what happens soon. And I’m going all in, this time. If its meant to be, cool. If not, well…. nothing lost.

No hopes up yet. Just don’t want to appear too eager, but ya I’m ready to take it slow. This roommate situation isn’t stopping me, I’m not getting anything out of it,  anyway and I’m not happy. I would have been but this dude made choices that didn’t include me by trying to meet up w another chick anyway. Hes probably effin around anyway