What I am going through right now

“O Krishna, I do not desire victory, kingdom, or the happiness accruing to it. Of what avail will be a kingdom, pleasures, or even life itself, when the very persons for whom we covet them, are standing before us for battle?”

–Arjuna in the Baghavad Gita, towards the end of the first chapter, flipped to Open Diary to post this because I so wanted to record it but I don’t remember the exact verse. It describes the nature of my depression, my trauma, my fear, my distrust, my grief, my heartbreak, my deepest tormented psyche…