Once in a lifetime
When you oil back at your life and your choices, there are two ways to approach it.
the healthy way – “wow, I’m thankful for everything I got to do and experience.”
the unhealthy way – “my life is filled with missed opportunities and regret”
quick guess which one I’m doing now.
I got out of an emotionally abusive house and ended up getting into an emotionally abusive relationship. And then I left that emotionally abusive relationship to get into an emotionally abusive marriage.
and now it 20+ years later, with kids, a house, a dog, and my fragile self. I’ve been beat down and chewed up and spit out. I was dead inside.
but now I’m not. And I can’t go back to being dead inside. I can’t.
And you may say to yourself, “My God, what have I done?”
same as it ever was…
You got this!! 💪
@thespiritwithinme I don’t know what to do, though. Or, maybe I know what to do but I don’t know if I have the strength to do it.
@laynemeyer2 these things are never easy. I was in a bad marriage and an emotionally abusive relationship. I raised the kids on my own. It wasn’t easy. Hard at times….but I am now through it and I look back and realize just how strong I was. You can find that strength as well.
@thespiritwithinme I know it’s there. At times it is very tangible. Other times, there is no sign of it.
@laynemeyer2 🫂
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I guess I’m just seeing this entry. Can relate to the not wanting to revert. I cycle through periods of shutting down emotionally. Trying very hard right now to correct that damaging pattern.
@the-idiot Finding the patterns is the first step to breaking them.
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