Beautifully Crazy

On your recommendation, I decided to listen to the song you suggested.  Yes, I would not only agree with the words, but I would be in strong agreement that I could very well say these very words to you. 

There is a certain chaos that you bring with you, but it never seems to lead to a complete loss of control.  Sure, you change your mind sometimes.  Maybe you take longer than you should to get out of a car?  Perhaps, I’ve noticed that you tend to linger a lot longer than you should, as though you’re waiting for something or may, just maybe, you’re trying to prolong our being together or even our just being in close proximity to each other by intentionally dragging your feet.  As much as I am pointing out to you some of the things that I observe with you and your behavior, don’t think for a second that I want you to change a thing.  I’ll be honest here.  I think there’s a certain cuteness to you and how you do things.  I like that you intentionally do things to be near me longer, if it happens to be for just a few more seconds.  I suppose I might do similar things to prolong my being around you.  I mean, there is absolutely no reason why I need to frequent your desk multiple times per hour.  Actually, that’s not true.  Let me clarify that.  There’s no professional reason for me to come by your desk as often as I do.  I have other reasons why I do that and the more important reason that I can think of is very simple.  I just want to see you every opportunity I get. 

Also, I thought that it was especially cute when you texted me late yesterday afternoon at exactly 5:30pm:

“Are you going to stop by before you leave?”   

So innocent and sweet was that text message, I must admit.  Not only did I stop by, but I would stay with you at your desk for about two hours and ten minutes after you sent that text message.  I know that you didn’t need that much help in writing your report regarding yesterday’s business, but yet, for some reason, I felt compelled to sit next to you and help you with that.  Again, maybe there was an ulterior motive there, but who can really say? 

Also, and in speaking of things that drive me wild, I can’t tell you what it does to me whenever I catch you looking at me.  Rest assured, during those 130 minutes that I was at your desk helping you write, I must’ve caught you looking at me a good dozen times or so.  Good thing you weren’t looking at me because I know that must’ve have doubled that number easily staring at you, but since you were so focused on your screen and the report you were writing, you never noticed. 

These games that we play are all very entertaining and I enjoy playing them with you.  It might come off as childish, being that we’re both adults, but it also feels good knowing that someone out there cares for me just as much as I care about them.  I will continue to play these games with you, so long as they continue to be fun and even secretive at times.             

And in the event that I hadn’t said this to you before, I do believe that you wear your heart on your sleeve and that you are very open to putting your happiness on display.  Maybe this is just me, but I love seeing you smile because that’s all the proof I need to let me know that you are happy.  I’m thankful that, maybe sometimes, I can be that source of happiness.