Fitting in

From the moment she said she didn’t love me anymore and that our marriage was over, I stopped fitting in.

I feel like I haven’t fit into work and life.  No one seems to want to approach me or talk to me. Life long friends have abandoned me, my family leaves me out of things and my kids even act as though I don’t matter.

I try to do “my own thing” but have yet to figure out what that is. I don’t like going places alone or doing things alone. I’m not a fishing or hunting guy. My body won’t let me hike or camp. Working out leaves me feeling like some weird odd person taking up the equipment others want.

I keep waiting for the therapy AH HA moment that hasn’t come after 3 years.

I don’t know what to do anymore.