So it continues

So… all night long not a word, all day long, not a word until about 6. He called to tell me he wasn’t coming home. All i asked him was i thought he’d be home already. And he asked me to leave the door open

I said i would and then hung up.

He texts me asking why I’m so mad. I basically him if the same thing was done to him, he would understand what he did was really disrespectful to me.

Anyway like a half hour later he texts me saying he’s coming home and now his dad is pissed.

Idgaf… i didn’t say to come home. I was actually enjoying the peace.

You made that decision for yourself and your dad is also an abusive asshole and hates me for sticking up for myself.

So who tf cares what he thinks of me. Another parent that doesn’t like me? Bummer. Join the club,  theres a list.  I am 46 years old. Zero fux. Zero.

Actually…. hmm.

All my relationships.  Except walt. They hated me. All of them. I do not care.

I deserve respect. I am respectful but i won’t stfu. And allow anyone to bully, manipulate or try to discard my feelings.

I read a quote today that seemed to be very fitting of my circumstances.

Ugh. But now i can’t find it… Basically you can fight in love but never fight to be loved.

Yuuuup. That’s where i am.

I didn’t go w my mom today. I will Saturday.

Long story short my entire body aches every morning.

Two days in a row i noticed it being extra.

And she broke her glasses so now we gotta make a trip to try to get them repaired.

But shes like 5 months over a checkup and they might not do it.

So tomorrow i had to ask my ex husband to take me and the kids up. He said he would call and let me know.

As for the him, i told him i was done. I’m hurt. I don’t want to talk anymore. Figure your own shit out.