Peace

I have it, briefly. I got into it again this morning before he left. The thing is, he has no compassion or remorse for what he’s doing to me. Its not healthy, it is abusive and I’m just not tolerating it anymore.

I deserve my peace and i will absolutely do what i must to have it.  Sadly, its not going to stop. Hes gonna keep doing it. Hes gonna keep lying to my face about literally everything.  I say it will rain, he wants to argue about that.

Combative, argumentative,  ignorant and I’m not dealing w it and shouldn’t have to.

I raised enough men.

Its why i walked from my marriage.

I’m better off, happier being single.

I’m still very stuck.

Idk how much more i can take, tho.

I need someone to take care of me, and want me and only me. Someone that treats me as an equal.  I’m so sick of being the care taker. I don’t want to be here taking care of my kids but i also don’t want them being taken care of by anyone else. I need to throw myself into selling because its the only thing i can do. Just wish i was better at it.