Its ok

My temper. I’m getting really tired of him. I try but i don’t really have any patience w him sometimes.  Ive not been laid in almost a month.

And even with any time I’m disconnected and just not interested in his vanilla ways.

He will get off on his own anyway, which is fine but I’m starving and get nothing and its what i had when i was married, it was the reason amongst others why i left annnd here i am again, 8 years later.

Sex is important to me. I have a very high drive and no matter how i say it, nothing is done

Well if… if if if.

Nah. I got a child to raise.

She comes first, in everything.  Shes a child. You can wait. You don’t and then i get nothing.  Not even affection at all. I know i got spoiled with it from my previous toxic buuut we all know how that went.

I just can’t win. I know if i don’t get it, i will find it elsewhere.

And i really don’t want to go that route again but this guy…. ugh.

Nothing. Not a hug, not a handshake.  He might pat me occasionally but thats it.

And i can’t deal.

Then today, i told him on Fri i was going grocery shopping w my mom.

He asked what i needed at the store and i messaged him my list but he came home w nothing.

He gave me 200.

So, Today he decided he really needed to go.

He took a hundred.

He will be off for a week so no pay. I was planning on going shopping but now i can’t, thanks to him.

And i yelled at him because hes like why don’t you write a list. I did mfer.

Then i typed what i needed then i wrote it on paper and now i have 3 lists. Well, whats on it? Wtf do you mean?? Why do you care? Im the one that cooks everything.  Hes trying to control me and what i buy and I’m just not having it. F U

So i lost my shit on him.

And now I’m in the bed, hanging out w my girl in the AC.

My shop is ok. I got more work to do on it but i got a lot done already.

5 orders out tomorrow.

So thats something.