~God Knows

I was thinking about a month ago (and typed this up then to post later)……

Thinking sometimes is not a good thing.. At least not Deep Thinking. But Typically even Deep Thinking doesn’t grab hold of me anymore.

I was thinking about sharing the story of my Son with a Friend I have gotten to know and continue to Know better. As I was going over on my Mind what I would say I got to the Part where Nathan had his Bike Acident and how I thought at first he was faking it. That thought reminded me of-

There were times, MANY Times when Nathan would fall and he would fake that he as hurt. I would run to him, “Nathan are you ok?!?” He would lay still. I would immediately start Praying. Only for him to open his eyes and laugh. He was always doing this. Or he’d pretend to hurt himself. He loved my reaction.

Then I thought about the time he had one of these Toy Hand Held Battery Operated Fans. It it a pointless thing. He traded something of his for this Fan. So one day he is holding it to his face and all of a sudden he starts yelling out and he can’t get the Fan away from his Face. I am FREAKING OUT. He could contain the Laugher no more… and busted up laughing. he had pretended his lip was stuck…

The Thought made me Laugh…… Then it made me Cry……..

“Oh Nathan, I loved you so much! What a good kid you were! What fun we had! I Miss you so much! I wish you were still here!”

And then my next thought was that God saw the Big Picture.

At least I KNOW where my son is, that he is in Heaven. Safe. In the Glorious Presents of Jesus Christ.

God was in Control and God had Perfect Timing!