~Don’t need to know

After getting back the Large Picture from the Framer that My daughter drew of her Brother which stands about 4 feet high and 2 feet wide,… I found looking at the picture made me angry.  Angry that Gosh Dang it!  He isn’t here and he SHOULD BE!  WE were so ripped off!  What happened to him should not of happened.

And then a week past and I was ok with seeing the Picture which was so Beautifully drawn..

TWO NIGHTS AGO
The TV was on to the NASA Channel and they were talking about discoveries of Head Pressure.  I typically stay away from shows like that. I  don’t need to know what they think or what they can do now.  I NEED to stay Nieve.  They talked about Bike Crashes and various things.  What it told me was Verify what I have tried SO HARD to not believe.  I am 7 1/2 years down the road, I don’t need this Trash popping up.  I NEED to continue to believe as I always have cause no matter what I may discover, it changes NOTHING.  He’s still Dead!  He’s NOT Coming back!

I got up and walked to the Kitchen and told Brian that I certainly DIDN’T need to see that!  Course then it haunted my mind.. I knew I needed to let a week or two pass and then my Mind wouldn’t be focusing on this bit of news.  Course we still can’t be 100% sure if Head Trauma contributed. 

I HAVE TO remember that God was In Control and HE could of raised our Son up.  HE raises other son’s up who have these Tremendous, and Amazing Body Twisting Accidents.. So because HE chose not to raise our Son up, HE saw the Big Picture.   He had a Better Plan.  And yeah yeah yeah I know my Son is in a Grand Place… What could be Better?