Sunday 7/23/23

7:42a.m. I finished Chapter 8 in my book America’s Constitution A Biography by Akhil Reed Amar . I’m proud of myself. I have four more chapters to go. If I could read aj chapter a day I will be finished  with that book by Wednesday. I already have a book lined up The Constitution Today  by the same author.

I wanted to read more but fell asleep. I had a decent night. The aides came in to check on me and changed my briefs. At one point they gave me an nice sponge bath. I was not laying iin or smelling like urine.

But I had a minor confrontation with one aide this morning. She insisted I use a walker to get out of bed. She said I don’t want to lose mobility in my legs. I refused. I said my legs are shot to hell I’m terrified of falling and breaking a hip. They used a hoyer to get me out of bed.

I was in my wheelchair by five. I slept in my chair until breakfast.They served a coffee cake and scrambled. For drinks I had two coffees and a glass of orange juice. Breakfast plus the extra coffee got me going.

I called Chocolatechip. She was not to happy last night. Somebody rang her buzzer and knocked on her door.  Chocolatechip went on a rant about people in the building. They are a bunch of low life scum bags and cowards. They don’t have the guts to face her. They have to play their stupid High School pranks.

9:24a.m. I was not doing very well this morning. I was lying in poop and pee since breakfast Aides ignored me when I yelled for help and had the call light on. What makes me mad is when they turn off the light and walk away saying they will be back. But they never come back. After nearly two hours of sitting in filth I was finially changed. 

I feel better now. I’m cleaned up and in bed. I’m wide awake so I’m going to tackle my book. I want to read Chapter 9 today. Life is good 

1:08p.m. I had a so so morning. I guess my age got the best of me. I felt cranky and grumpy. Nothing was wrong but nothing was right. I tried to read my book. I read the first few pages of Chapter 9. The author was talking about the 27 Amendments to the Constitution Amar began by discussing the original Bill of Rights. As always it was interesting but I just couldn’t concentrate on the material. I don’t know what was wrong  I guess I was just a grumpy old fart today

Chocolatechip was doing laundry. She stayed in the laundry room for fear of someone messing with her clothes. We talked on Messenger for a awhile. Chocolatechip was really pissed in general and Eddie the Moocher in particular. I think she meansk in this time. She is not answering her door to anyone. I keep telling her all they want is to mooch.

I had a delicious lunch. I ate two slices of pork and a baked potatoes. I also had a dinner roll and two cookies for dessert. Then I had a fruit punch and black coffee. I’m full now but not too bloated.

I called Chocolatechip shortly before lunch. She was chilling watching a movie, The Trouble With Angles.  One of the stars was Rossiland Russel. I think Haley Mills was also in that one. I watched it with her about a million times. It was about girls in a Catholic girls school and their wild antics. It is still a good movie.

But we still talked . We talked about different things such as the Bitc Clique. But mostly we talked about the movie. We stayed on the phone until they served lunch. 

6:34p.m. I haven’t been changed since 9 this morning. I’m beyond mad. I’m pretty pissed off! I’m definitely going to call  Michelle Monday I doubt it will do any good. I complain to authorities. Things get better for a few days then it’s the same old shit. This was one fucked up day. 

I did have a decent supper. I ate two grilled cheese sandwiches and a cup of pears. I also had coffee and half a cup of pears I have no complaints about the food. It’s the complete lack of care. 

I just told the nurse when she brought evening meds. She said they are going to give me a shower in a few minutes. I said it better be a few minutes. Most of the time a few minutes means a few hours if I’m lucky. I asked the nurse how would you like to lie in poop and pee all day? She said she understood. I bet she doesn’t give a good shit.I hate this place sometimes I hate it most of the times. But it looks like I’m going to be hear for the duration 

I had some thoughts today. I thought of hurting myself. I repeat I’m not going to do anything stupid But I got very depressed and anxious from lack of care. I felt like nobody in this place gives a good fuck about me. Other than Chococolatechip nobody on the outside gives a good fuck. Thinking like this only made the depression worse. 

8:11p.m. I did get a nice shower and a shave I feel much better. I’m all cleaned up and do not smell like pee. Now that I’m clean I hope I can concentrate on my book and finish Chapter 9