Thursday 7/20/23
10:46 I am not having a good day. First it is the same old story I didn’t get changed at all last night. So I was lying in urine from after dinner until they woke me up. This made me very mad and depressed. Second, it is eleven . I’ve been peeing like crazy I haven’t been changed since the aide got me up at five
I’m so tired of this bullshit. Everyday I have to fight with the aides to get help. I resign myself to just sitting in poop and pee. I’ve done everything I could I complained to APS aj million times. I got an omnibus an on their case now. Each time I complain thing get better only to slack off. Im tired ,so tired of this shit.
Like I said I got up at five. I was very tired and slept in my wheelchair until they served breakfast. I had the usual scrambled eggs and toast. At least the coffee was hot. I fell asleep again after I ate.
At least I made it to the Coffee Social. The extra coffee is working its magic. I’m feeling somewhat better. I hope they will let me stay for lunch.
12:51p.m. I’m back in my room. I had Sicilian beef with gravy, potatoes, green beans, a dinner roll and jello for dessert. It was good . I ate everything but the grean beams. I feel a bit better but I’m very depressed still. Usually a good meal cheers me up but not this time. I feel like complete shit.
2:37p.m. An aide finally changed me.He came in around 2:00. He changed my briefs and got me in bed. I feel somewhat better but still feel very depressed and anxious. I think lack of care brought this on. I talked with my psych doctor. I told her about the depression and anxiety. I told her about not being changed since 5am. She wanted to change my meds. But I didn’t think it was necessary. I said the depression and anxious were brought on by lack of care.
She also asked if I’m still on the waiting list for the Geriatric Center. I said yes as far as I know. The social worker was supposed to make a referral. But I have my doubts that he followed up. I really don’t trust anyone from this place.Detalk tospite the lack of care I’m having second thoughts about moving
I do not want to lose my landline service. That would happen if I moved to the Geriatric Center. I would have to pay for a cell phone and I just can’t afford one. So I would be without a phone and unable to talk to Chococolatechip. That would be devastating. I’m thinking now if she can come see me I do not need to move.n
I talked with Chococolatechip today. She went to the Grace Lutheran Church’s food pantry this morning. Chococolatechip was a little bit disappointed with what she got. She didn’t get much in the way of meals. She said she is definitely going to Walmart for groceries tomorrow. She is going to take the bus
We also talked about a visit. Betty Jo, her case manager, is coming I back Monday. Chococolatechip is going to call her for a ride down. If she can’t make it Monday it would be on August 7. Chococolatechip said she has a busy schedule with doctor’s appointments next week. Other than Monday August 7 is the next possible date I cannot t wait to see her.
7:15p.m.i had two pieces of chicken cacciatore ore for supper and a glass of punch. That wask enough to make me very bloated I called Chocolatschip after I ate We talked until. 6:30 . Chococolatechip was looking at at apartments. I can’t believe how high rent is in this area. The lowest start at $333. Most began at $600 a month. That one in Follansbee was $500 with utilities. That was the best deal but it was over half her income.
I fell asleep at 6:30 Aide woke me up and changed my briefs. At ?east I don’t have to lay on urine all night.My sto!ach settled down. I’m going to try and read tonight. Good nogjt