Letter of Regret

Looking back I fell so deep into your spell. Like being wrapped up in a cloud of smoke unable to see anything in front of me. The further I walked with you the more of my self I was losing. I was so blind for so long, lost sight of so much. I was fighting within my self to find something, something I knew I was losing so fast.
Felt so much like a dream I couldn’t wake up from, like the alarm never went off. The real world faded and my make believe started to becoming a reality. I felt everything within me start to twist and turn and the things that were good started to go bad. Your kisses were nothing but poison like the venom of a snake. Your love started to burn beneath my veins slowing stopping my heart from beating.
So in love I was trapped my self in your world allowing everything you did okay. Swallowing my pride I kept telling my self I was wrong, that it was always me. In some way I made myself believe it was always me, none of it was ever your fault. So many tears I would cry while you slept right beside me.
Now I look bad and your love no longer fades me, Your venom no longer hurts me. I’ve grown immune to your damage. I no longer walk with head hung low in the dark, now I walk with my head held with a smile on my face, walking in the light of the day. I look back at you and smile because now your under my spell and I’ve left you in the dark to regret all the things you’ve done and all the things you can no longer control.