Lock away

  Memories that burn in the back of my head. Send me in a fight full of rage. Stomping up the steps I swing my door open with so much force. Slaming it shut behind me with a bang! I’ll lock it so no one can get into where I am. Turning the music up as loud as it will allow me, to drowned out everyone banging on my door. I’ve had enough I can feel something inside me burning hot. My hands begin to shake, I need out of this house, alway from this messed up thing I call my life. Open my window and I jump down, time to do something else to forget. Getting to a house full of people, "wow what a party." Time to forget that bad…….

How long have I been here? I can’t remeber what the time was when I got here. Oh well, No worries right now, just another drink. I’m ready to let everything go from my hands and spin its self out of contorl.  I don’t want to listen to the rules and allow the worry to take over. No gilty feelings left for me to feel. Its to much of a blurr to face anything right now. I kind of like the crazyness right now. No reason to care. I know deep inside I’ll pay for this later and wish it never happened. It should all be locked away, but right now I just want the fun in it.