Obsessive

       What to say? Living the same life everyday. Getting up in the morning taking a shower, getting dressed, putting on make-up. Now its time to play on the computer and get something to drink. Soon time to leave for work, gather stuff heading out the door to the car. Dropped off a little early, clocking in time to get started. Works over time to get picked up and go home. Eat dinner watch TV for a little, and maybe write some. Soon in bed ready to do the same thing again tomorrow.

Obsessive a little with a routine everyday. Doing everything everyone asked for. Playing the small part in a little thing called life. Stressing over everything, never finding time for things wanted to do. Only finding time for that, that must be done. There never seems to be anytime for play?

  No more obsessing over something that isn’t causing happiness. Decided its time to let go a little and not care so much. Time to put what everyone is saying in the back and put everything else first.

 I’m playing my own game now, by my own rules. I don’t want tp listen anymore just smile laugh and go with it. I can do the right thing and still have a little fun. I’ll allow for once for things to get a little out of hand. I can handle more than people think. I can have fun until late at night and still get up in the morning and go to work. No more little miss obsessed with always being on top and being what everyone else wants. I’ll wear my clothes how I want, do my make-up how I choose for it to be. I’ll act and say what I want, and hang out with who ever when ever.
   Don’t get in my way because what you have to say I just don’t want to hear anymore. Maybe when things clam down and people back off, I’ll be more clam. Until then I refuse to talk to anyone, or listen to reason…….