And its back

My anxiety is now on high alert.

Found out he was released, at least 2 weeks ago.

So, now i can’t sleep.

I’m not afraid of him. I’m not even afraid of seeing him. I am afraid of our daughter seeing him and freaking out.

Shes 6 and has diagnosed ptsd already from all of it. It is reversable at her age, but this also means he needs to stay away.

And i know he will keep trying his shit.

They said they saw his motorcycle outside on Thursday.  I did not. I was home but we were asleep.

I can’t deal with any of this, now.

Anyway, thats what has my brain at almost 3am…. yesterday went to my moms, helped put her AC in, then picked up my son from his dads. My mom gave me $100 to give to my son for his bday.

Saturday night, visited my mom for a bit but then i took my girl to the park, she played and played and then we saw the fireworks which was an absolutely amazing show!

And it was packed!

Then she finally got her night drive in that shes been begging me for.

We jammed out to music on the way home and i saw how she was totally up on it! She was very well behaved, too.

I always carry a lump of worry w me because she does run and doesn’t listen. We walked to the refreshment stand about 3 city blocks away from the playground and after she got her drink, she asked if she could run and i let her.

She ran without stopping, all the way back.

i had my eye on her the entire time but could barely keep up.

Today i felt like crap because ive been very congested all night and barely got enough sleep.

i ended up crashing out on her and woke at 130.

my son is still up and here i am.

i have a few ideas in my head about trying to make money but they’re just ideas right now.

i gotta reapply for food and they always give me problems.

Ugh.