Waiting

I’m getting tired of waiting. 4 years and I’m still waiting for “things to get better”. Yeah, I guess I could be homeless or dead, but I don’t think I can keep up with this waiting.

Yes, I have tried to make it happen. I have put in the effort over and over. Ever watch a fly constantly bang into a screen over and over? I’m the fly.

Things maybe getting better, in a couple weeks for me, but I can’t enjoy it right now. You see, when all you have done is try and lost over and over for over 4 years paying for something that I still have no understanding of, it gets harder to come back.