dear diary… its about him again

Sometimes I feel a lot, so much I dont know what I feel. I feel happy and too real and that scares me. I feel like life is too good for me and im not sure what to do with it. Even though I haven’t gotten the boy im madly in love with to like me back… I feel content with the thought that he was in my life even at all. Out of all the people in this world I got to experience a love for a boy from a distance who has all the traits I want in a guy. As depressing as it sounds for some reason im  greatful to even get the chance to have known him, even if it was a short amount of time all those years ago. I will never stop loving him but that doesn’t mean he’s the only one ill continue to love. mY life is full of opportunities and paths I can choose to take and that I couldn’t be more happy about.